Sooooooo it's been quite a long-assed time huh since this piece of crap was updated.
so many many things have been going on. here and there and everywhere huh.
so im on attachment now. well basic pay is damn boring. as well.
and now im based in tuas. YES FREAKING TUAS.
but on the flipside, it's quite fun lah really.
my colleagues are nice. my buddies are awesome.
and my supervisor is a supervisor you'd want. HAHAHA.
i shall not talk about her for fear that word might leak out to her and that she'll know im talking highly of her. yes.
so everyday now i have to get out of the house AT 630am. yes.
it's like im going to secondary school yeah. and i reach home at normally around 8pm.
830 bar the dinner with yajing and clement.
those are 2 of my colleagues.
ok enough of attachment. it's gonna end in less than 2 months.
it's quite sad too really.

SO results are out like weeks ago. yes i passed. lol although i thought that i wont pass the FYP module due to the fact that i HAVE NOT passed up my soft copy or hard copy or presentations or cad files or my aes. yes.
miracles do happen and a B is quite cool really.
my gpa went up by almost 0.2 BUT it's quite shitty luh.
now everyone's talking about universities and i kinda feel inferior yeah.
maybe cos i dint study well or listen in class. no time to regret lah. cannot.
dare to do and dare to face the consequences.
i'll take my chances one at a time.
and i still hate my biomedical modelling teacher mr neo.
for giving me a C for doing sooooo much shit. yes a C.
how could you. i did so much lor, please.

ok so this would be a kinda emo part yeah. the graduation ceremony.
dont think i can attend it yeah. that sucks lah. i wanna graduate with my classmates.
well i still get to but i dont get to attend the ceremony, i cant bring my mom along to see me on stage.
well i only have myself to blame but yeah. that was what i was looking forward to.
people say it's a waste of time, yeah but i wanna see the look on my mom's face when im on stage. in front of your friends, in robes. taking photos.
i dont have the chance for a robe now. how sad. how miserable.
this really played a big part on me. hmmm im still dreading the fact that i cant go.
and the lecturers said i got to graduate with the others.
dint know it applied to not being able to attend the ceremony.
this was the one time i can say a formal goodbye to my schoolmates.
we can meet up but it just isnt the same as being in school, getting to know each other's crap for 3 donkey years. it just made me sad.
as i said, it's all my own fault.

well orientation has passed by. i dint get to attend camp eagles and the orientation. due to work.
well it's sad yeah but i cant really do anything about it.
i miss school and camps that i have participated in. i miss getting to know people.
i miss showing myself out unconsciously.
it's where you let go of yourself and just have fun, be it participating or organizing.
i miss the moments of fun and laughter with your bunch of friends.
the sleeping together in the room, with all the funky smells.
the joy of seeing people suffer. yes i miss those moments terribly.
i yearn of participating in a camp again upon hearing stories from people on how fun their camp was.
i miss the noisyness of the camp when people talked in unison about everything and nothing.
about the brainstorming if you were the organizers.
maybe it's just me. but i really miss the moments.

well im looking forward to the gathering this sunday.
hope that most of the people turn up then it'll be more fun.
but lesser also aint so bad. i can get more food.
and im coming down to school on tuesday for the watersports club commissioning and to take my polo package as well.
it'll be nice to meet up with the team again.
i miss my swimming buddies too.

well that's all for now. im currently having free time cos i finished my work.
yeah. i've gotten to know new people, cool people.
but it just isnt the same as being around your old friends.
someone bring me back to reality.
bye !