alright, this is just a small thing.
maybe im overly sensitive. but hey.
i wanna air it out at least.

i know i have been avoiding for the past couple of months.
yes i know, especially about that money thing.
sometimes i spend on things that are not important.
and by the time you know it, hey you're on a meagre amount of money left.
truthfully i dont mind paying.
be it 5 or 10. hey you're my friends.
but think about it.
every person's birthday i have to give money for a present.
hey im happy for them yes. i have no ill feelings.
but what about my birthday?
if a shirt or whatever it is you guys cant afford, at least something worthwhile.
something i can remember you guys by.
that chocolate, i still have not eaten it yet.
once i eat it, hell it's gone.
everyone's birthday i contribute.
okay by my own will.
but why i dont wanna pay now is because how do i feel?
have you ever thought how i feel?
to come out money, to see people wearing new stuffs.
what do i get?
what can i show?
maybe im a tad bit ungrateful and too sensitive.
well i dont think i am. im sorry i really dont.
i can voice out my frustrations to you guys in person.
but at least before i leave i wont leave a bad taste.
i mean yes i dint expect anything at the start.
the wishes were enough.
but when it continues. it saddens me.
i feel like im the least important among you guys.
it's not that i want to get angry.
i feel like the least important person right now.
that's how sad i am.

well that's about it.
i hope some of you guys read and maybe you'll understand.
i know im not one of the people you guys may like right now.
but hey. i think i have a valid point right there.
so understand.