for something so small... im terribly HAPPY (:
someone wipe that huge-assed grin off my face. HAH!



im so so shagged from soccer
so you know shagged means emo.
i feel a little under the weather today.
i feel cold all over. gosh.

so i was listening to the song the kill by 30 seconds from mars.
i started to reminisce about that point of time.
it was really saddening. really really.
cos of the words. here's the chorus, followed by the bridge.
i'll add the song into my playlist at the side so you guys can hear it (:

CHORUS:
Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All i wanted was you

BRIDGE:
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who i really am inside
Falling from myself
Falling for a chance
I know now, this is who i really am

the screaming and the passion really adds up everything.
i wonder if she remembers.
we may not be the best of friends, just that maybe i feel that i dont belong in her life.
but the heart is still there.
the feelings wont cease at all it seems.
it's just been a bad bad day really.

till next time people.








i love this song.
listen to it in my playlist.
scroll over the UP button and the playlist appears (:



you know. how you stumbled upon your old blog.
or friendster comments.
how you used to write such SHITTY STUPID things in a STUPID way.
really i found myself stupid. hahahaha.
yesyes absolutely. i cant stand how i used to type back then.
like ohmygawd please. it's so horrible horrigible terrible i tell you.
but. HAH im glad it's over.
i like the way i write at present. that's all that matters.

it was a really tiring day at school.
it's seriously damn humid today. gosh.
damn hot lah. im sweating badly. must be the fats burning.
yeeeeeeehaw!
today i was in lab for maybe... 2 hours max?
maybe it's a post-presentation-screwup syndrome.
HAH. it requires no explanation.

today was the last day of FYP for most of the labmates or labneighbours.
i'll miss my friends, the people who tease and make me laugh.
until im the tamil champ now.
i'll miss the no NORTH. no KOUFU. no SOUTH. no MACS.
practically no to every single canteen in school.
the extended breaks and the laughter.
that's the only thing. laughter.
it seems we'll be separated forever though there's stilll msn.
it's not the same aye?
but to my friends, through good times and bad time.
you're cherished.

I HAVE A PSP NOW. BEEP ME IF YOU HAVE GAMES TO SEND (:

i'll be away for the weekend. HEH. sms-es will be replied on sunday.
im pretty much screwed. i left my notes in the lab.
and i only managed to study just a little.
gawd. and test is on monday.
thank you good night.

it's a hot and humid night.
i just just just feel like emo-ing now.
cheerios!



presentations screws you upside down sometimes.
you stutter and you stammer.
you say the first things that are on your mind.
all that impromptu stuffs. really screws you.
the look your supervisor gives you, shaking her head.
urgh. suck balls really.
well what's done is done.
eff it already.

lets go all out training for IVP, and to actually start running.
gosh 10km run is coming up luh. and it's a miracle for me to run.
RUN i tell you. i dont even run to school.
only during emergencies.

on i learnt something for parthi today.
life is about making mistakes. it's how you learn from it.
lawls!



i tell you something.
i'll gladly swap from NYP to RP, even if it means taking another diploma.
if it's for free.
RP is effing HUGE lah. and so.. RP-ish lah. power.
it has a scenery, like you're on a hill. seriously. or a high ground.
like really really cool.
and the blocks look like offices.
and the canteen is like, secluded. just that when you enter it. its like our koufu.
ONLY BIGGER. AND MORE VARIETIES.
it's like a mini 4 story canteen with 5 stalls per floor.
and they had 2 drinks stall on the bottom and the top floor. WTF man.
and that's just ONE canteen. if im not wrong there's another in renovation near the swimming pool.
and we werent even CLOSE to the pool. so yeah. HUMONGOUS.
i wont hesitate to lunch there again. provided got car.

wonder how's the scenery like in NP.
if you get my draft. LOL LATERS!



first and foremost. im sorry.
really i am. i dont know how much it meant for you for me to be there.
maybe its because im a friend?
but really i cant sit and stay, as much as i want to.
SUPERVISOR lah.
it's not that it's more important or what. i hope you get my drift.
if not it's okay. just understand i meant no harm in running away.
I HAD TO RUN! well you know i cant run for nuts.
just nice she called AFTER you called.
so i went to show my face. at least i did come.
that was what i was thinking.
but it was nice to see you're not sick.
i hope it dosent ruin your day today.

happy birthday(:
may your hopes and dreams come true(:



so its time. to sit back and let the brain juices flow.
i have decided to blog about... MEMORIES OF NYP.
yeah pretty much lah. well mostly about what goes on during the 3 years =D
i think its gonna be a long long post so disinterest yourself now if you dont wanna read.
wahahahahaha. yes yes.
oh and first and foremost. NYP SUCKS =D

when i first came to this school it was just blurry-eyed, still growing person.
everything was done with enthusiasm, be it studying or getting to know people.
first cca i ever had was swimming, where i got to know so many people.
the brothers i had. weijie, ken, kelvin, shen yeong, marcus, hanrong, justin, desmond, tillyson.
the girls. irene and jane. the people i have swam with for coming to 3 years.
the bond and the understanding of each other's nature is there.
what we have with the juniors and between ourselves is different.
the understanding of our mood swings are just another unimportant thing.

then came camp focus 2005. where much more bonds were forged.
the people i had so much fun with.
the laughter and the sadness after 6 days of getting to know each other's crap.
getting to know surprising things about each other and our ownselves.
though everyone's busy with their own things, the memories stay.

after which, becoming and OGL, and thus joining the SEG A&R club.
the eagles camp, the many many bonds.
so many new friends, so much fun.
running around, tiring ourselves, looking like idiots.
but it was all to build our morale, to build a team.
for which more bonds were forged. the events, the camps.
priceless. the happyness that i felt after co-organising a camp.
the rush of sitting alone at 5am. walking aimlessly around the camp grounds.
just thinking of how i made a committee and did it.
to ourselves, it was a success. nothing else mattered.

then came the year 2 guys into swimming. we decided on a water polo brotherhood soon after.
the only thought i had was to give it a try, because i wanted to play.
not to win, not for nothing, but for fun.
a team, instead of swimming for myself.
to win together, to lose together, teammates.
we have had ups and downs together my fellow players. no matter how or what.
the happyness of going to competition as a team, sitting on the bench or whatsoever.
the losing mood, may have been sour to us.
but we learn about each other more and more.

being part of the committee for ogl 2007.
where everything clicked.
after which, where my emotions took over my brain.
causing so much pain, yet now it's just a fragment of memory.
how i wish it dint go that way.

camp focus 2007. probably the hardest-to-part with memory.
the fun, laughter, screw ups and patch ups, sleepless nights, frantic letter writings. priceless.
probably the last camp i can attend.
but the gang of focus facilitators, the committee and the some oh-so-annoying campers.
but without you people, there wouldnt have been something we called CAMP FOCUS.

the fyp people, the classmates. of which we have known each other for 3 years.
francis, mohan, parthi, the people who can make you laugh like idiots.
parthi, the classmate and the partner in crime for so many things.
the sleep-in-class syndrome and the last minute revision with the smart people.
how could you not miss this moments?

i never thought spending 3 years in NYP would have such an impact.
i thought it would be a splash and dash kinda thing.
how wrong i was.
so as i sat down and laid on my bed, everything flashed past my eyes.
how fast time flies, and i'm getting out of NYP to adulthood.
the moments will be treasure and missed surely.

but. one thing, when people kick your chair, it's for a reason.
SOMETIMES it's unintentional. SOMETIMES it's for a reason. LOL.
no harm meant =D



wonder how, you did your work.
thinking you have done a pretty decent job at that?
yeah then your teacher came and dessimated everything.
and you realise that what you have done, was pretty much nothing?
LOL that sucks i tell you. not angry.
just that it sucks big time lah.
i think my project is gonna be crazy. presentation next week.
and total hell this week. RESEARCH ALL THE WAY LARHS.


anyways. GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE luh.
I'M YOUR SPLIT PERSONALITY RIGHT. WAHAHAHAHA.
what a fun day it was caps-ing.
you know who you are right great mind. wahahaha.
damn gay lah. ah gua.



i think i wanna start blogging again.
i havent blogged in ages. yesyes. AGES.
things been coming up thick and fast the past few months.
i'll elaborate later. will be a GODdamn long post i tell you.

first was the fina swimming world cup rehearsals. hahaha it was fun.
COC people. clerks of course.
we had to account for the swimmers into their respective lanes.
and lead them out to the pool.
but the excitement would reach the climax the week after.

so during the rehearsal was CAMP FOCUS.
yeah it was the facilitator's camp. it was okay really.
had fun fun fun cos i love camps lah. ups and downs but it went well.
and BOTAH JONES is heaven man. wooot.

then the next week was the actual world champ.
it was TREMENDOUS MAN. absolutely enjoyable.
got to know a few friends from COC. and a few others.
caught up with some of my old swim people. haha enjoyable.
THEREESE ALSHAMMAR =D she's the nicest person ever man.
i got some of the best swimmers to autograph on my book =D
including the world record holder herself, natalie coughlin =D
AND THANK YOU HUILING FOR THE NICE PICTURES ((:

then came the real camp focus. it was so fun can.
yeah a slight concern came up afterwards but i did try my best see..
but my fault =D BUT LAST CAMP ALREADY =(
so no more camp in schoolllll. awwww. that sucks.
i loved that camp. the laughter, the sleepless nights, the emcee-ing.
was really fun ((: and the facils and comm worked together.
a sight to behold.
so many friends came for the camp and that simply made my weekend.
tons of letters came to my mailbox, mostly from facils
and thank you ((:

swim meet just passed 2 days ago.
it was another fun day. only swimmers and lifeguards particiapated.
LOL. expected. but the fun part was the endless swimming around.
relays and stuffs. AND THE CRAMP AT THE LAST PART.
I SWAM LIKE A HIPPO CAN.
but ((: one gold and one silver. quite alright!

so that's the end of my happening month. HAPPENING RIGHT.
so just a small little piece of my mind yeah?

so it ended. i think life plays hokey pokey on me. one day i can be so so so excited just to be brought down all so suddenly after 10 mins. im sorry to those who found out. sometimes its just hard to take in. and today i was so so so happy. till i got to know. i got to know. DAMN i got to know. life sucks sometimes. my feelings are torn up. just like that. the tale of the two extremes. how i know all about it now. fuck it.